Thursday, April 28, 2011

Overwhelmed

I think it is interesting how my DOC buddies understand me more than most of the people in my “real life” This is why I chose to vent to you guys. I am feeling SO overwhelmed these last few days. Vince and I have so much going on, diabetic and non diabetic related. I have chosen not to write about these things yet, but I know you guys will understand the strain medical issues can put on you. I am just tired. Tired of worrying. Tired of thinking ‘what if’. Tired of having to managing it all with Vince. Tired of seeing Vince in pain, exhausted and miserable. I hate thinking like this: ‘why me, why us’ but lately Vince and I have both said this through the tears a lot more than usual. We try to be good people. Why us? Why must we deal with all of this all the time without a break? I try to remind myself, and Vince, that it could always be worse, but even that gets hard to believe after awhile. I know it’s true though. I know it could be worse, but that doesn’t make me feel better. It just gives me the strength to get through one more day and be positive for Vince one more time. It’s just so hard. What’s next?

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10 comments:

  1. AnonymousApril 28, 2011 at 6:38 PM

    Sandy,

    I'm sorry it's so hard. We can drive ourselves insane asking why. Hang in there.

    S

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  2. UnknownApril 28, 2011 at 8:33 PM

    You gotta read Meri's post on the Why's and How's it is soooo good and relevant here my dear friend. It sounds like you and Vince have been going through so much. Chin up when you can...and vent when your chin is dragging on the floor. LOVE YOU GUYS.

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  3. UnknownApril 28, 2011 at 8:35 PM

    Here is a link to Meri's post. She is one of my FAVS!!!

    http://www.ourdiabeticlife.com/2011/04/do-and-his-ugly-step-brothers-why-and.html

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  4. SandyApril 28, 2011 at 9:03 PM

    Thanks reyna :)

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  5. JulesApril 29, 2011 at 1:03 AM

    i absolutely know what you mean. the medical issues add so much additional weight to your life. its pressure that magnifies the other things going on around you and make it all so much more burden to carry. HUGS!

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  6. LillyApril 29, 2011 at 9:17 PM

    Sandy,
    I have felt from the first there is much you don't write about. Yours and Vince's path is not an easy one by any means. Positive thoughts and prayers to both of you . . .
    Hugs,
    Lilly

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  7. SandyApril 29, 2011 at 9:33 PM

    Thanks...yeah, some non diabetic medical issues have come up... Just so much to deal with...I'll share eventually

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  8. AnonymousApril 30, 2011 at 7:13 PM

    there should be no pressure here to "fill us in" that is yours to decide if and when you feel like it. we are just here to listen and help if we can. Clearly you are a very strong woman -- give yourself a break and allow yourself to feel the pain when you need to -- you are entitled. my guess is you need sleep! I hope you get some soon. Take care.

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  9. SandyApril 30, 2011 at 7:32 PM

    I think I need rest too lol thanks

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  10. Lynn BarryMay 2, 2011 at 11:56 AM

    Trying to pretend it is all okay is exhausting...I have been there...it is okay to say "Damn it...it is not all okay and I am worn out". HUGS and LOVE, Sweet Sandy.

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