Thursday, April 11, 2013

What Was It Like Before....

What was it like before Diabetes?

What was it like before complications?

What was it like to NOT see him in pain all the time?

What was it like when I didn't hear cries from the pain from the one person that a simple cringe would break my heart each and every time?

What was it like to grab food without thinking about Vince's bolus even though I was the only one eating?

What was it like before, when I didn't know the first thing about health insurance because I didn't HAVE to?

What was it like when I first met Vince and didn't worry about his disease?

What was it like to go to work and not worry if he was alive and okay where ever he was that day because I really had no idea how dangerous this disease was?

What if you were prescribed a medication but the side effects were life threatening if you didn't take it the exact way you were supposed to, but that way changed every day? Would you take the med? Think about it. That is insulin........

What was it like before I was judged for worrying about Vince, all because people "don't get it"?

What was it like when he was working?

What was it like when he was working and I would have to coax, urge, and beg for him to pull to the side of the road or to the 7-11 to treat a low while he was driving?

What was it like before the CGM? When I was his human CGM "weak-o-meter" as I was called.

What was it like to be so scared about the glucagon needle?

What would it be like if Vince wasn't diabetic?

What would it be like to not worry about Vince if he happened to miss the phone when I called?

What would it be like without the retinopathy, neuropathy, and hypoglycemia unawareness?

3 comments:

  1. Heartbreaking questions, Sandy. Sending you guys all the supporting vibes I can muster.

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  2. It would be someone else's life.
    Sending strength and support.

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  3. I'm also a wife of a type 1 dibetic and was asking myself the same questions. I think I forgot what it's like to not worry.

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