I have a very bad habit, if you want to call it that. I rely on Vince for my strength 24/7. My emotional strength that is. I need him to be strong and show me strength in order for me to get through situations. How horrible am I? I need HIM to be strong for ME? Doesn't he have enough to deal with in order to remain strong for himself? Why can't I let him break down sometimes? How unfair of me! Sad thing is, I don't always know how to keep it all together once he falls apart. We have so many things going on and going wrong in our lives lately, (some that I haven't talked or posted about, but maybe in the future when the time is right) that it's hard to keep it together all the time. Why is it that I can cry and be sad and he is there to pick me up 100% of the time. But then when he is down, I am not there 100% of the time to do the same for him. If he is just in pain and having a hard time, then I have no problem being there for him. It's when things that come up that are more emotionally draining on my heart in addition to his. A recent situation has made this happen again. I was dealing with the issue and as soon as I realized he was having trouble and was down too, it got me even more sad. I actually told him to please be happy. That we both have to be strong for each other so we don't lose it. Then shortly after, I started to lose it and I told him that I knew that was very unfair of me to ask of him. That I knew we would both get through this problem, and I told him I was sorry for telling him he HAD to be strong for me. Why do I think like this? Is it because he is the one person in my life that make me the happiest and whenever I need him, he is there to pick me back up? I know I need to learn to be strong for myself sometimes. I should not rely solely on him, since he has a hard enough time keeping himself together with all his issues. This is why when people say how strong I am, I don't believe it 100%. Sure, I am strong most of the time for him, but I think I need to do better.