I think it is interesting how my DOC buddies understand me more than most of the people in my “real life” This is why I chose to vent to you guys. I am feeling SO overwhelmed these last few days. Vince and I have so much going on, diabetic and non diabetic related. I have chosen not to write about these things yet, but I know you guys will understand the strain medical issues can put on you. I am just tired. Tired of worrying. Tired of thinking ‘what if’. Tired of having to managing it all with Vince. Tired of seeing Vince in pain, exhausted and miserable. I hate thinking like this: ‘why me, why us’ but lately Vince and I have both said this through the tears a lot more than usual. We try to be good people. Why us? Why must we deal with all of this all the time without a break? I try to remind myself, and Vince, that it could always be worse, but even that gets hard to believe after awhile. I know it’s true though. I know it could be worse, but that doesn’t make me feel better. It just gives me the strength to get through one more day and be positive for Vince one more time. It’s just so hard. What’s next?